the lion with cold feet

 

She is a lion with cold feet.

 

it was late at night and I held on too tight. My fingers were nearly purple. 

from an empty sea, a flash of red and green light. I asked if it was light from Wiltern Theater 

She didn’t answer and I asked her  ?why? 

She said her feet were cold and that we should go back in. 

 

She is a lion with cold feet. 

ironic, I know

 

we were       w i d e - e y e d       girls and always right

No, she was a       w i d e - e y e d     girl and always right

the city our playground and its people just holographs.

 

She went with a roar and I 

                            fell

                                  back 

                                        into 

                                              place. 

빨강 Red

We have way too many cigarettes in our house

My dad keeps them on hand always

His favorite brand is Marlboro

Marlboro Reds

 

Does she wear red?

 

Though he used to prefer Parliaments

That was before he found

 

Do you buy expensive watches for her because you can’t buy her rings?

 

Marlboro Red cigarettes

Attracting all the sad men in this world

 

Do you light her cigarette, dad?

 

with their reds and whites and blacks and golds

So ready to light up and smoke

Math Class

my head feels like a lead ball

or maybe like a brick

like a liter of water is swimming behind my eyes

with 3 goldfish to go with it

i can't focus,

there's a boy sitting in front of me and

he keeps smiling at me through his overgrown bangs

my math teacher bends down to pick up a marker

and I see

the top of his balding scalp

oh how horrendous

TV, pig, frog

I eat

and eat

and eat to fill this black void inside of me

but it seems

that my void is not getting any smaller, as I had hoped

only I am growing bigger and bigger, physically I mean

I’m scared I’m just gonna be a frog with nothing but pickle friends

shit, I worry so much, sometimes I feel like I'm going to turn turn black and blue